Tuesday, January 18, 2005

came home ard 11pm yesterday.. angah met fadhil and he passed her some stuffs.. the stuffs were for me.. it was his journal, anuar zain cd and the pink tshirt he wore during our 1 yr anniversary.. after i washed up i immediately took the journal and read it.. it was abt the 1 yr we were together.. the ups and the downs.. after reading it, i noe deep down he really treasure me alot. i knew he was scared of losing me the whole 1 yr. but we ended up goin separate ways. its not that i dun love him anymore but im a confuse gurl who doesnt noe wat i want. i think i wasnt ready for all this stuff yet coz im still young.. wat i shud hav done was to juz concentrate in my studies and my family...menyesal dahulu pendapatan menyesal kemudian takde gunenye. i do treasure the time we spent together. like i said kalau ade jodoh in future tak kemane. ive always believe in fate. i did cried wen i read the whole journal. he remembered every detail we did wen we were together.

im not too sure how mama got to noe bout the stuffs fadil gave me.. i guess it shud be angah who told her coz angah was the one who pass to me. i noe mama is juz concern abt me.. but y does she need to noe wat i got frm him? isnt it supos to be personal? but look at the bright side.. she is my mom she ought to noe coz im still under her supervision. she said by me accepting those thgs mite give the impression that i might give fadhil hope. that wasnt my intention at all but since orang dah bagi we shud juz accept it.. like org tue always say, rezeki jangan di tolak, musuh jgn dicari.

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